Monday, February 8, 2010

Am I beautiful?

Am I beautiful? Don't answer because that's a rhetorical question.

I think I have blogged about this subject already. But here it goes again. I guess I am hung up on my outside appearance this days. I am adjusting to how I look.

I saw a guy in Walmart Sunday. He was nice looking guy. I got in line behind him. The way he looked at me just got me to thinking. I might be wrong (doubt it) but what I think he saw was an overweight girl. What I wanted him to see is a lady who has changed. I wanted him to see a lady who had been through a great deal to get to where I am now. I wanted him to see a new person who is working hard to be an average size. I wanted him to see a lady with a heart for people. I wanted him to see a lady who loves to laugh. I wanted him to see me just me not my weight.

The sad thing to me that as much as I want others to see me not my weight I am guilty of the same thing. We were having the discussion at work today about prearranged marriages. (We have good conversations at work.) After the girls named a few people, I realized how guilty I am of doing the very thing that is my pet peeve. I look at people by appearance first. In reality, you do meet most people by appearance first but how often do we shut people off because of what they look like, what they are wearing, their race, their size, their hair. I am guilty. How can I expect other to treat me fairly when at times I don't do the same.

How do we change it? I don't know how you change but I can change me. My favorite verse is what I need to hold dear to me.

1 Samuel 16?7 Do not consider his appearance or his height for I have rejected him. The Lord doest not look at the things that man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart!

I think Brandon Heath's song puts it the best way!
Give me your eyes for just one second!

Give me your eyes so I can see!

Everything that I keep missing!

Give me your love for humanity!

Give me your arms for the broken hearted!

The ones that are far beyond our reach!

Give me the heart for ones forgotten!

Give me your eyes so I can see!


Wendy said...

Loved this post. If we could only remember the way God sees us, and care less about what man thinks. It is hard.

Found your blog through Melissa. You are doing awesome!

Patsy said...

This is a great post.

Having lost 245lbs in the past, I understand what it's like being in the not-quite-there stage... I still have 90lbs to go to my goal. (I regained a LOT of the weight I lost over the past couple of years) and at the moment, I'm in the 'obese' category. In the past I was pretty much off the scale! Someone who was put off by a woman being overweight would be horrified by the way I look now. That's their problem, not mine. They don't know how much bigger I used to be, and quite frankly, if they're judging me on the way I look now, they don't deserve to know! I'll keep that nugget of information to myself.

Although it's not healthy to be very overweight (stating the obvious, here!) I think there's too much emphasis placed on being 'acceptable' (i.e. a clone!) What worries me are the number of people who blog about losing weight who say they want to be 'thin'... Now, whether this is a use of language issue as most blogs I read are American, but here in the UK 'thin' would be underweight... Not good. :o(