Thursday, March 25, 2010

A few thoughts about change!

A few changes.......

I'm dancing again at the Old Timers Game...I looked back at the video from 2009 and boy have I changed! I actually look forward to replacing the old video!

Oh yeah! I am excited about Fit Camp...six months ago I probably would not have even thought of joining a boot camp. Definitely would not have done it 2 years ago! More changes!


Today is an impatient day.
I am ready to be at goal. Sometimes I get frustrated because it seems that it is taking so long for me to get there. Where is there? My mind has been set on 175 pounds for more than 2 years.

I know that I was not the average person who needed to lose that extra 10 or 20 or even 50. I was an unhealthy on the way to the grave morbidly obese 33 year old.

I'm struggling with patience on this particular day!

I'm making a list of things I don't have to worry about anymore and things I can do now...
1. I will not worry about if the chair will hold me anymore.
2. I will not worry about fitting into a booth anymore.
3. I will not worry about only shopping in big girl stores anymore.
4. I will not be what everyone expects me to be but what God expects of me anymore!
5. I can do the exercises that Bob ask me to crunches and jumping ain't easy but I can do it!
6. I can make a difference in the lives of other people.
7. I can make it without cake

What God does God want me to do?
Trust in the LORD, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the LORD,

Now what will HE do...
And He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD,Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass.He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light,And your justice as the noonday.
Psalm 37:3-6

Thursday, March 18, 2010

First picture is from October 2009 at my friend(sister) Abbie's Wedding. This dress caused me lots of tears! I started strict back on the diet, exercising more, and workouts with Stephen. Now just 5 short months later....I am almost 59 pounds smaller! November 1st thru March 18! Not even 5 full months! Oh my overwhelming!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

UGH! UGH I say again!

UGH! Tonight was really bad for me. Ugh I say it again.

It was workout Wednesday and I love work out Wednesdays! But tonight I left frustrated with myself. I started off strong then fell to weakness!

I didn't do so good mainly because I started feeling sickly. Nausea! The sicker I felt the harder it was to workout. I had to stop several times Made me so upset with myself. I began feeling the disappointment creep in during the workout. I hate not finishing and feeling like I did not do enough.

The thoughts of failure in myself then turns into this look on Bob's face. It's like he thinking I know that you can do it so do it to it! He's probably not but that's what I being to think! I see it as being weak. Ugh I hate that feeling of not doing good. Side note: I know Bob is not disappointed in me...that's my imagination....he's proud of me no doubt.

So what am I going to do about it? Tomorrow is a new day. Someone told me we all have off days. I am throwing this one up to a off day and start again tomorrow.

Monday, March 15, 2010


I really been feeling the need to post something but nothing is really going on. I guess this is a good thing.

Something that has happened in the last few weeks is that I have now lost 157.4 pounds...105.6 pounds to my goal.

For the last 3 weeks I have been walking at the track. No set times or with anybody. I just go whenever. I've made plans with a Shauna and Alyssa to walk but just show up most of the time.

It's been interesting to meet people at the track. I have ran into Jamie more than more time and walked with her. This weekend we were walking and met a young lady out too. Jamie was like we need to talk to her.

When I first saw her, before I even talked to her, I saw where I was. She looked like she was struggling with every step. It was slow and steady but a struggle. I wanted to approach her but remembered a time when I was probably unapproachable myself. To be honest...not in a mean way...but I wanted to run to her and run around her and do nothing but cry out encouragements. I am not a freak! I just wanted to encourage her to go and to do it to it!

Jamie initiated the conversation. She told us a little about herself. She told us that she has decided to start walking again. I think maybe that this was her second day and she was walking a mile. Wow. It took me back to a time when I first started and how I was good to walk a few laps around the gym at church hurting the whole time, begging Abbie and Diana to tell me how many we had left.

As we left, we got her number, hoping that I would run into again to be an encourager to her.

Today...again I don't plan out times...I just go. I was walking at the track and suddenly I heard a load WHHHOOOOAA! I turned to look and she was waving and hollering to get my attention. I was on my last 3 and 1/2 laps(3 miles I might add!) I was on the opposite side of the track where she was started but I decided that I could pick up my pace and make it to where she was. Her pace plus my pace made it where I caught up with her on my last two laps. We talked the whole two laps. She asked me about what I do. She talked about the some of the struggles she faces being overweight. It was amazing that some of the things that she still faces I once faced. It makes me a little teary to think that I have come thru so much and will not have to worry about those things again!

My prayer has been that through my journey of getting healthy that I could encourage other people. To have an affect on some one's life. My new walking friend...she has encouraged me. I am enouraged to know that God will use me to share what He has done for me through all this. God is good all the time God is good!

Saturday, March 6, 2010


I was told today by someone that someone told them..... I wasn't a big girl anymore.
March 4, 2010


Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

If you never did, you should. These things are fun and fun is good!

Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.

Dr. Seuss