Sunday, November 16, 2008

There will be gains!

Ok so I have been on the program for 11 months. And yes there has been some gains. The first time I was .8...not a big deal. I handled it. It was after 11 weeks. The next week I lost 5 pounds.

Then 8 weeks later...I gained 2 pounds. It was terrible. Diana came in after me and when she asked me how I did...I began to cry. IN THE MEETING. It was awful. Ms. Barbara tried to make it better but I was really upset. I know the others thought I was a little off. Diana laughed at me because I was so upset. (She really is a great friend...she is the reason I got started! She wasn't being mean...she thought I over reacting!) After the meeting, Ms. Mary(WW secretary) and Ms. Barbara(WW leader) felt really sorry for me. They hugged me and told me I could do it! It was a small setback and I had come so far. They really encouraged me that night.

I don't know why this was such a big thing. I had gained once before. But 2 pounds!!!! Silly me I had already lost 76 pounds. I was so afraid that I might go backwards! I had worked so hard in those 5 months...I was having a break down.

That night it was a break down but it was actually a break through too. I don't know when I did it ......but I decided that it was ok. It was a gain but the not the end. I realized there were going to be gains but it didnt matter. I had already been successful. I knew why I had gained and needed to move on from there. The next day was a start over.

You know...the gain was not the real problem. It was the reason I gained. Getting to the bottom of weight gain is so important. Not enough exercise, too much food, not enough water, eating too late....factors that really matter.

I have gained again since time it was 5 pounds!....but I try to handle it in a different way..than tears. Oh it upsets me but now I have to think about what I am doing. I have to change the behavior that caused the gain.

Being healthy and maintaining a healthy weight is going to be a lifetime challenge. I have to know that I have a ways to go and there will be ups and downs. But I am going to try and have more downs than ups.


Melissa said...

I tried to comment yesterday, but it didn't work. Oh, well, let me try this again....
I think you are doing awesome and the fact that you didn't give up after a setback is what matters!
By the way, they have some cute tickers at (I think that's it) where you can show how much weight you've lost with cute little graphics. I've saw them on some blogs that I visit and they are cute!

Nicole Sullivan said...

I think that's the reason that Brandon stopped going to the Weight Watchers meetings. He would start gaining weight and got upset thinking that apparently he just couldn't get it right. So he quit. Since we got some stuff paid off, I'm hoping maybe we can join together.