Sometimes I just don't know what to write but I found something to write about.
Writing is like therapy! Recently I got my feelings hurt because I wasn't included. It really bothered me. My feelings where hurt and I am usually tough as nails. I didn't understand why I was left out and still don't. Besides all of that, it made me think about how many times that I probably left someone out and it hurt their feelings like it did mine. Maybe God used this to teach me a lesson. I don't like learning lesson sometimes! I'm going to do better.
People like to be around me I hope! I like to have a good time. I like to be around people. I love to laugh and make people smile. My mother tells me people just like to be around me. I guess it's from my great personality(HA) not too humble though!
I think the joyful attitude started with actually pretending. People don't like to be around people who are negative. I had a lot to be negative about when I was a kid. Mainly because I was the largest one in every situation. So instead of turning in I turned out. Laughing, having fun, being happy so people liked me even though I was overweight.
I think overtime people just grew to overlook my weight and love me for my fun personality. My mother always worried that I couldn't be serious. I know when to be serious and all the other time love life. So people liked to be around me because I am happy. As I grew older, it became me. I don't remember when I decided to be happy all the time and forget about my weight. As large as I was and still am, it never stopped me.
My weight watcher leader told when I received my 1oo pound award that she remembered a very sad looking young lady who walked through the doors of WW. I never felt unhappy. I guess I just looked it during that time.
Hey don't think that I don't have depressing days I do but most of the time I AM HAPPY! So everyone don't worry be happy!
I know you probably raised an eyebrow when I said pretending. I guess overtime I just got tired of pretending. I really do love life and like to have a good time. If you like me good, if you don't I don't care! I am going to be happy and have fun and love life! I have a Savior who loves me and cherishes me. So I'm happy and I know it!
2 comments:
it's so interesting what you say about pretending. i remember growing up when i used to stay with my granny...we had naptime every day after lunch. i would lay in the recliner for my naptime. even though many times i did not feel tired at all, i found that if i *pretended* to be asleep and if i could fool just one person walking by the recliner, the next thing i knew, i would be asleep for real. so my goal every day was to pretend i was asleep and just fool one person...then i knew i'd be successful at the nap.
we've heard all our lives that sometimes you just have to *choose* to be happy. yeah...i think that always involves a little bit of pretending, at least at first. i agree.
we're all actors in our own rights, aren't we? ;)
I have to really try to think to remember any times when you haven't seemed happy. That's one of the things that I think people love about you. You can't be unhappy when you are around someone else who is so full of happy.
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